Poked Again...

Not that kind of poked! You pervs! Today I got poked for hopefully my last HCG test in regards to this pregnancy. My bleeding has tapered to spotting and I am physically feeling better. Emotionally, I am sad... I feeling like a gray cloud is always looming over me. Today, at the doctor's office, I barely held it together. I don't really know why, but out of the blue I started to tear up. Being back to work has helped, but I still am sad. I asked Tony if he thought I was taking this too hard, but he did not answer. He just mentioned that we've been through a lot. I am really thinking about counseling. I just can't shake this sadness.