Brave...

I knew that visiting my BFF'S baby boy would take a bit out of me. I handled myself pretty well during the visit and I was lucky enough to be the only visitor at the time. I really am yearning to be a mom and seeing this perfect family made me incredibly sad that it isn't working so well for me. This week I will schedule a ultrasound to verify that no growth has occurred and then I will schedule a D&C. I feel like I have to do this before school start because I just can't deal with it once I'm back.