Bad Blogger

Yeah
I am a bad blogger...

I am swamped with school stuff and life stuff lately.
Plus, sleep is an amazing gift, so when I get the chance, it is my top hobby of choice!

Speaking of sleep...

Charlie has decided that he is not a baby that sleeps through the night anymore. He and I have spent many midnight hours together lately and all I can say is that it is a good thing he is so cute...

Speaking of refusing to do stuff...

Charlie also refuses to walk. He knows how, but he sees no reason to do it because he can crawl more efficently especially when I leave the baby gate opened.

He does give kisses and high fives. I totally teach him useless stuff, but it makes me smile to get his sloppy smooches. And honestly, what 1 year old needs to know how to read a book?

Going back to school after summer has been extremley difficult. It is even more difficult than going back from my maternity leave. I am struggling to balance it all, but Tony has been amazing at helping out. He is a great hubby to have and Charlie and I are lucky to have him.

What else???

There is so much!

I got a new car. My Beetle has been replaced with a Chevy Exquinox Mom-moble. I will miss my Buggy, but it is so nice to not have to crawl in the back to strap Charlie in and out.

As for the new pregnancy...

Holy Shit! I am 17 weeks. Where is this kid going to sleep? If it is a she, what will she wear? Double diapers! Breastfeeding again! Maternity leave!

Yikes...

I need to get planning!

We have names (Frankie or Evie short for Franklin Anthony or Evelyn Elizabeth) and will find out which it will be soon. Everything is progressing perfectly... Weird... But AWESOME!

Anyway... I have to pee so this is it for now... More soon... Actually, probably not so soon, but maybe!

Happy First Birthday

I have so many thoughts about this special day, but no words can come close to describing how much that little blue eyed boy means to me. We are having cake tonight and a huge party on Sunday so I will update then, but here is a link to his scrapbook I have been making for him. You may have to zoom to see the captions.

Click here to view this photo book larger

Life Currently...

Life currently is a little crazy...

Charlie got sick this week for the first time in his life...

He had a random fever of 104 for like two days and holy shit that is scary! All the little guy wanted was to cuddle for three straight days. He just felt miserable. We went to the doctor and she couldn't find any ear or throat infections which meant that he had to go through some very unpleasant things to find out what was wrong. The first was a urine sample in which he had to have a catheter inserted to collect a sample to see if it was a bladder infection...
No dice...

Then he had to have a ridiculous amount of blood drawn for further testing. He was unhappy about all of this, but I was truly traumatized. Tony will now have the job of taking Charlie to the doctor because I cannot handle it...

Charlie is now on antibiotics and we'll have the lab results tomorrow. In the meantime his antibiotics are making him break out in rashy hives which makes him crankier than his knocked up mom...

Oh this is so fucking fun...

I just want my happy health boy back.

In other news, my boss totally announced that I was pregnant to all of my coworkers... Yea... At 10+ weeks... SofuckinglividandscaredthatIamnowjinxed... I felt I had to tell him, because word was spreading quick and I don't mind if people know, but if something happens, I don't want to have to face everyone to tell them...

I hate that kind of pity...

Speaking of school...

I go back in three weeks. I have loved the time with my boy, but I am ready to go back. He is also ready to spend time away from me. He totally loves hanging with his Aunt Jenny and cousin Brock and I am so pleased to have he care for him. She is great.

I am starting to do my lesson plans. I have most of my one prep done for the year, but the other is going to be a challenge. I am anal about being organized and insist on having my planning completed before school starts because it makes my year so much easier. This means that basically, I'll only have to look at a calendar and go to my unit binders grab the copies I need or mini-lesson notes for the day during the year. Plus, by doing this now it will help when I also my maternity leave rolls around.

9 Weeks with #2

9 weeks...

This means that in 7 months, I will be a mom of two!

I am still nervous about the evil threat of miscarrying, but there is nothing that I can do if it happens.

As for symptoms... Still not many that I believe are true symptoms.

My tas don't hurt (although I have been faking this symptom so my husband leaves them be)...
I am a little bit queasy and totally exhausted and I pee a lot during the night... I also want to eat EVERYTHING.
I seriously cannot get enough to eat.
I didn't even let them weight me at my intake appointment today because I honestly think I have gained way too much.

Charlie is ignorantly blissful about this whole deal. He is unaware that in 7 month he is going to have to share his mommy. I feel a little bit bad about this, but I know he will adjust.

Speaking of adjustments... I am freaking out!

We need a new car because there is no way that 2 children will fit in my Beetle. I can also guarantee that at 8 months pregnant I will not be climbing in that backseat to buckle Charlie into the buggy.

We also will probably need a new crib because I am sure that transitioning Charlie to a big bed at 16 months would not be a good deal.

We will also need to set-up a bedroom for our new bundle of joy which means moving the guest bedroom junk to the basement (and in my mind making the basement livable and not yucky).

So much to do, so little time!

So excited and so blessed!

Camping

This weekend we went camping in the new tent Tony got for father's day. It was hot, but we had a blast. We spent the weekend with two of our close friend couples with boys with the same age as Charlie. We went to the TC Cherry festival and then the beach. It was a great way to spend some much needed time as a family. Here are some pics to show our fun!

Charlie LOVES swimming.
This picture doesn't even come close to showing how much he enjoys splashing around...

He is so brave. He totally crawls out until the water starts to cover his face and wants nothing to do with any floaty devices.

He also loved the sand. He ate at least 3 fist fulls.


After swimming, Charlie was tuckered out, so he took a little nap.


Charlie was perched on top of his daddy's shoulders for the entire show and was totally captivated. He must get that from me because I also love fireworks.


Overall, it was a great weekend with great friends and I find myself wondering how will these outing go with two!

Speaking of number two... How blessed am I?

I almost feel like this is too good to be true.

My numbers are doubling and I don't even have to go one progestrone this time.

I have an ultrasound on the 20th of this month and I am so excited and hopeful to see that little heartbeat.

I am also feeling all of those emotions that I felt before.

I am scared...

I am so scared to lose another.

I know what could be and it makes me sad about the things that weren't.

Because of my experiences, I will never take motherhood or my children for granted. Everyday I wake up and I know what a blessing I have.

Today, I saw a mom yelling at her 11 month old in the store.

The words "no, you are bad" spewed from her mouth and my heart shattered.

What 11 month old is bad?

I hate that some people have the privledge to be a mom. They are trash and don't deserve it.

Anyway... That was buggin' me.

Not many symptoms yet. I feel extra sleepy, but charlie hasn't been sleeping well so I attribute it to that.

I wish I felt something more.

A sore boob, a gag...

Something...

Oh well...