Thump, Thump, Thump...

We, well actually Tony (I can never really see that stuff on ultrasound so I'll have to trust him and the ultrasound tech), saw a heartbeat today!

According to our ultrasound we are due on August 25th which makes me 5 weeks and 6 days pregnant...

We will have another ultrasound next Wednesday to assess the development...

I am still having spotting here and there so I am using progesterone gel and they found that I have Lupus Anticoagulant. This is some sort of clotting disorder which made have made me lose the last two pregnancies. Basically I have to continue taking baby aspirin and I should be okay. They may prescribe Lovenox to treat this issue... We should hear about this later today or tomorrow...

We have never seen a heartbeat... This is so exciting and scary at the same time...

A Quick Update and a Warm Wish...

Spotting has stopped for now...

Ultrasound is on Monday, so only 4 more days until we can see what is up...

6 weeks pregnant tomorrow...

So scarred to be on this roller coaster again...

Tony and I are heading up north until Sunday night...
I'll update after the ultrasound...

Merry Christmas! Hope your day was wonderful!

PS: If all is going like it is supposed to:

Growing like crazy, baby is starting to sprout eyes, ears, nose, cheeks and chin. Those little hands and feet- still webbed like paddles- might wiggle by week's end, the heart is beating (almost twice as fast as yours!), and blood is starting to circulate.

Fuck...

Bright red spotting...
Not good...
Shouldn't have fucking cleaned this morning...
Doc says to hang out with my feet up...
Merry Fucking Christmas...

I will regret these words...

I know I will regret these words someday soon, but I wish I felt more pregnant...
I wonder if there will be some point soon where I stop worrying so much about if this is going to work out. I know that worrying is pretty pointless because it is not like we can control these things anyway, but I just can't stop...
6 more days until the ultrasound...
Maybe then I will be able to breathe a sigh of relief...

Going Up...

Target was 1300...
HCG Level Today = 1667...
Going up!
Woot!
:)
Ultrasound Dec. 29th...