Holy Hannah - I am having a baby!

Not right now of course because I am blogging...
But within the next week, I will have a baby in my arms...
Not just a baby, but my baby girl Evelyn "Evie" Elizabeth.

I am nesting like crazy. My house has never been this clean - ever! With a toddler, I highly doubt it will stay this clean for much longer than his nap time.

I think we are as ready as we can be for the big event. Arrangements have been made for Charlie's care, my bag is pretty much packed, my birth plan is good to go and, well, I am just ready to smooch her little chubby cheeks. As of last week, I haven't really dilated or anything yet, but my doctor said that could change within hours and she is in the right position. If I go into labor on my own, we'll try for a VBAC. If not, my C-section is scheduled for next Tuesday at 7:30am sharp.I refuse to be induced... I never ever want to go through that hell again. I am good with delivering either way as long as the result is a happy healthy baby.

This will sound crazy, but the thing I am most nervous for is leaving Charlie. He'll be in good hands, but the longest I have been away from him is overnight. If I have a c-section, I will be in the hospital for about three days and even though he'll visit, I am going to miss his smile and goofy demeanor during my stay. Plus, I'll leave here having him as my baby and when I get back, he'll be my big boy and quite honestly, I am just not ready for that.

We are so blessed. When I look back at where we were to where we are, I can't help but think that I am the luckiest person in the world. More updates coming soon!

Cravings...

I must have these things before I stop being pregnant in a few weeks:
Mancino's Turkey Grinder
Cold Stone Ice Cream
Pad Thai Chicken
Strawberry SourPatch Straws

Evie's bag is packed... Tony's bag is ready... Momma's is untouched...

I am as big as a house currently and I am not just saying that... There is no more room for her in me... Everything is squished. In three weeks exactly we will definetley have a baby in our arms!

Woot!

4 Weeks...

Preparing...

I can't believe that in about a month our girl will be here. I know I sound like a broken record on my blog, but we are just so incredible blessed. 3 years ago, we were in a much different place. Now we get the privilege of having a little boy who hugs and kisses us everyday and a little girl who will be snuggling close soon. I am so ecstatic, but also scarred. I can't believe we are bravely going to juggle two under two. I am also freaking out over the fact that I have to leave Charlie for a few days while Evie is born. I have only ever been away from him overnight and three days away will be really hard. He will visit, but I am not used to being away from him that long. The next on my to-do list is to pack my hospital bag. This week marks the start of weekly appointments so I'll be updating!

Kick, Jab, Elbow!

Our little Evie is a mover! Charlie never moved this much and Evie never stops. I love that she is her own spunky person even before she is out in this world. I am still freaking out at the idea that she is going to be in or lives soon. We have nothing ready and I have no idea how I am going to do it, but yet somehow I am calm... Somehow all that I can think about is how grateful I am that our family is expanding... I'm not worried about her room because I know she'll always have a loving set of arms to sleep in and honestly, not much else matters...

We should however get some more clothes because I do fear that she'll be wearing only diapers or Charlie's out of season boy hand-me-downs...

Charlie is also AMAZING! He is learning so much and growing so big! He knows body parts (head, ears, nose) and follows simple directions (throw this away please). He has his father's goofy disposition and mine anal retentiveness. And did I mention how cute he is?



His chubby cheeks melt me.
He gives kisses and hugs and say "hi" and "uh oh".

I am so incredibly blessed.

I am also so incrediably pregnant.

Due date is March 1st - C-Section is scheduled for the 8th - I bet she joins us in February!

Ummm... I am going to have a baby soon...

Really soon I am going to be a mom of two! A little adorable 1.5 year old boy and a precious little newborn girl.

Was I on crack when I though this was a good decision???

Seriously!

Freaking out!

Right now I am offically in the third trimester and only have 11ish weeks before I do the newborn thing again. I seriously begged my doctor to let me stay pregnant as long as possible to buy me more time at my last appoinment.

I feel totally overwhelmed and so beyond not ready...

I also feel so incrediably blessed. I can't believe that I have the family I've always dreamed of... The family we've been through so much to get... I am not sure if this will be our last or not. We are just taking it one step at a time and rolling with the punches.

So for the nursery, we have decided to wait until June to set it up. Honestly, I'll be nursing and she'll be in our bed or a bassinet for the first few months anyway. I am going to get our guest room around so all we have to do is move the furniture out and the crib in. Then fluffy with pink accordingly.

I love this set and my parents are buying it for Evie...



The room is already painted a cream color so I think I am just going to touch it up and call it good.

I need to start stocking up on diapers. We also need another monitor and some clothes and perhaps a double stroller and then I think we'll be ready.

On another note... Charlie is huge and awesome! Walking, talking, CLIMBING... He's just amazing and is the light of our life. He is going to be a great big brother. He is so helpful and well tempered.

We are blessed.