Friday, May 21, 2010

Leaving on a Jet Plane...

Charlie is flying from the first time tomorrow.
I am super nervous and I still need to pack.
We are heading to Cali for a wedding. It is a super quick trip which is a shame because I love Cali.

Also...

Did I mention my baby is huge! 22.08 pounds 29 inches! He has three teeth and the forth is poking out. He is into everything. He loves to play peek-a-boo and pat-a-cake and he is finally crawling with his belly off the ground. He is growing too fast. I am afraid if I blink he will be graduating and having babies of his own. My love for him cannot be put into words. My husband and I make a good team.

He isn't a big brother yet, but he is a big cousin. After years of infertility treatments, my brother and SIL just had their second. Without assistance!

Also... On another note, two people I know fairly well have recently miscarried. I know no words heal that pain, so I cry. I cry for them and their loss. I cry because I know that pain and sometimes it hurts to know I lost two little ones that could have been as wonderful and as perfect as Charlie. But we can't live thinking about the could have beens... We just have the what is and the what is, is perfect and sleeping in the next room for now at least.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Busy, busy, busy...

Just when I though life couldn't get busier, it does! Work has been killing me lately. So much grading and so many extra activities are bogging me down. The good news is that I am getting my tenure and in the teaching business, this is a BIG deal. I am also getting a student teacher next year which is a huge honor because it means my boss thinks that I can positively influence other aspiring teachers. 34 more days until summer!
Enough work talk...

On to more important topics...

Like Charlie!

He is 8 months old tomorrow!
He currently weighs 21.10 pounds and is 29 inches tall.
Ladies and gentleman, we have a football player on our hands!
He has two bottom teeth and loves to say "momma" and "dadda" nonstop!
He also enjoys singing and electrical outlets.
He loves to pull himself up on just about everything and is getting brave enough to let go of things to see how long he can stand on his own. He loves to crawl around our floors and his favorite place to hang out is in the bathroom (Yuck!).

Our spring brink trip went very well. 17 hours in a car didn't phase our happy little chubby cubby at all. Went took him to the ocean and he ate some sand. We explored Charleston, SC and the little town of Folly Beach where we stayed with two other couples. It was too short of a trip to be worth the 17 hour drive there and back, but I loved being away with my boys. Also, I am thoroughly impressed that all three of us and all of the baby junk fit into my little Beetle. I am in need of a better mom mobile ASAP, but I LOVE my bug and don't want to give it up!

Every weekend from here until June is booked for us! Tony is a bestman in two weddings so we have showers, bachelor/ bachelorette parties, and wedding up the wazoo! We have to fly to California for one and organizing that was a major PITA, but it was worth it because I love the couple and I LOVE Cali!

In other news...

We are officially trying to get pregnant again this cycle. Our hope is for a spring baby, but we would feel blessed no matter when he or she comes. If he or she never does come, I feel beyond blessed to have Charlie. I know that going through what we have been through has given me a different perspective on motherhood. I don't take a moment for granted. Even when I am drop dead tired, I never forget what a blessing he is. I also think having Charlie also makes the miscarriages a little more difficult in ways... I know they weren't formed or viable, but I still wonder what they would have been. I wonder if they would have the same color of eyes as Charlie or if they a would be as mild tempered as he his...

I also wonder if Charlie was always my first, but his time wasn't meant to be until it was... I wonder if his soul was just waiting to to join that little baby body when I was finally able to carry it. I will never have the answers, but I have my Charlie and that is good enough.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Birthday Wish...

Today is my 29th birthday...

For the last three years I have wished for a baby on this day...

Two years ago I lost a baby on this day... Or at least the beginning of one...

This year got to snuggle my wish to sleep...

So this year I wished for his health and happiness...

Thursday, March 18, 2010

100 Word Update...

Work's good but busy...

Charlie is getting big...

And he's getting a tooth...

On the bottom…

Sleeps through the night…

WOOT!

Goodbye 3-6 month clothes...

Hello 6-9 month clothes...

Almost Crawling...

We want another...

Ovulated last Monday...

Hello first period since forever or...

Maybe a baby?

I’ll keep you updated…

Eek…

Holy shit…

Another!

Let’s not get ahead of ourselves…

My birthday is almost here…

My wish from last year has come true…

Big spring break trip to North Carolina with friends soon…

Where to begin with the packing?

Only 55 until summer break…

Can’t wait…

Love my little boy!

Monday, February 8, 2010

On being back to work...

It is not so bad. No tears shed. Does that make me a bad mom? No... At least I don't think it does. I love my lil' bear, but I am glad to be back. And Charlie totally got the "it is time to sleep through the night" memo, because he has been a champ at sleeping lately (knock on wood)...

Things are crazy and I have no time, but I kind of like craziness... I think it is because I am always trying to control it and so perhaps it is a fun challenge rather than burden. Charlie is so happy with who is taking care of him and I am too. Everybody tries (or at least tells me they do) to follow his routine and he is still such a happy boy. I think all the change of scenery is good for him and will make him more adaptable. Anyways... It is time for bed and I am beat!

17 more weeks until summer break... 8 more until spring break... And Wednesday is looking like a snow day... I really could use a cuddle day so I am keeping my fingers crossed.